Sunday, March 2, 2008

Breast Cancer & Friends

I am here to tell you that I could have not gotten as far with this cancer fight as I have without my Hero's and Guardian Angels.

My sister Lee is both. She led the way for me through this terrible ordeal. The ugliness of having your chest destroyed and mangled. The pain. You can't imagine the pain. Burning stabbing pain. And through all of that the only thing that mattered was the love I felt for her alliance to me, her faith in me to survive this. It's funny after it's over the thoughts you share. She didn't think I was strong enough to endure this because of all the grieving I did over Ricki. Ricki was my strength. Ricki showed me how to fight. Ricki did not die in vain, she died showing her mother the way, the way to life.

My husband Bruce is my strongest hero. He bathed me and I was embarrassed for him to see my chest. I was humiliated by the ugliness there. The scars, wounds, black and blue, the caved in chest that was once full. The bloody drains. How could he love me now? And I watched his face as I removed the bandages and I scrutinized what was on his face, his emotions. He showed no signs of disgust or repulsiveness. All I saw was love in his beautiful face. He washed me and when he was done he hugged me to him and he said he was glad that I was still here with him because if I died he mine as well as died to.

Then there is Toni. She is an Angel. She is no relation to me. She is a young person who has so much compassion and love and giving in her heart. She was here with me right after surgery applying lip moisturizer to my lips because it hurt to move my arms right after surgery. She sat by my side and comforted me. She came to my house on Friday and she washed my hair and she stayed with me until the visiting nurse came. When the visiting nurse asked to see my wounds and I un-bandage them, Toni was not repulsed by what she saw. She was very supportive. She is close to my heart. She is a very special Angel to me.

I had so many people sending good thoughts and prayers my way I felt truly inspired to get through this well and healthy. I thank you all so much and I am on my way to a full recovery. I am humbled to all of you and your good and happy thoughts. Jackie Sue you are the best. The cream of the crop as mom would say. Thank you, thank you. To all of you whom I have never met and stopped by to wish me well...Thank you. The positive energy is with me giving me strength. Thank you.

I am truly blessed by everyone of you. Thank you.

9 comments:

yellowdog granny said...

the easiest thing i have ever done is be your friend....

buddha_girl said...

Nancy, you are loved. Period.

The Buddha House is so very grateful to hear your words and know you are on the mend.

*hard hugs*

kath said...

So glad to see you back here and posting. Now you will get better every day... and go on being the loved person that you are...

Life can be good...

billy pilgrim said...

and we're truly blessed by knowing you.

you give us immeasurable strength.

keep up the good fight.

Rainwolf said...

Glad to hear you're doing so well. I kinda like it over here so I'll be stopping by to check on you now and then. Continue getting better!

Mama Kelly said...

So glad to see you up and about. I am also glad to know that you have people with you to love you and care for you while you heal.

Many Blessings
Mama Kelly
2witchesblog.wordpress.com

tsduff said...

You are an amazing inspiration, in what you have written. Thank you.

texlahoma said...

Sending you all good vibes that I can from way down here. Keep on getting better!

Juanuchis said...

Yay! Great to hear from you, and to find that you are well on the mend.

Hugs!