Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Special Cream Cost An Arm and a Leg

So Walmart finally got my 'special' cream for my new nipples. It cost around 100 dollars for this tiny tube. But it has special enzymes that will make the black rotting skin grafts fall off. So far no luck. I get in the shower daily and try to scrub them off but they are stuck like glue oh oh oh stuck like glue it's me and you baby stuck like glue...sorry got that damn song stuck in my head.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

The Summer of My Life!

I drove alone from MA to Minnesota and then from Minnesota to Colorado and then from Colorado back to MA. 5000 miles. What a freakin journey it was


Monday, October 25, 2010

I'd forgotten...

I'd forgotten how much I enjoyed blogging. Katrina took that away from me. She took a lot of things away from me. Boy once someone invades your privacy and uses it to hurt you it does take a while to heal from that kind of hatred. I don't have anything else she can take so fuck it. You know what I mean?

I heard from Boo via FaceBook. Goddess it was so freakin awesome to hear from her. She wants me to move to Hawaii. Live with her in Hawaii. Do you know I am thinking about it. Especially after the hate mail I got from Bruce's step mom. I am just tired of all the hatred directed at me because I am not Sharon. Sharon was Bruce's first wife. She died. I am telling you never marry a widower. I would rather deal with a bitter ex-wife then a dead saint.

Bruce also got a letter. His said Sharon was such a good lady and I was the most disgusting person she had ever met...really apple and oranges. Bruce loves my disgusting ways. hahaha

Hawaii sounds good. Warm weather. No one sending me hate mail. With family that loves and wants me. I really can't see a down side to this.

look at those's a beautiful thing family.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Been A While

I haven't been here since Feb. I always find myself coming back when I seem to deeply hurt.

So here I am. And I am deeply hurt.

Do you know what is truly disgusting? Hate and the people who spew it, and spread any way they can.

They disguise it in many ways. Many ways.

It only in the long run causes pain and suffering. That is what they want. They want you to have pain and suffering.

I am choosing not to be involved in it. You keep your hate. Choke on it. wallow in it. Bathe in it. It is what you know and love. I do not want any part of it.

I choose not to be a part of it. Someday because life is a circle you will feel the pain and suffering you have caused and it will be three times worse for you. You will become enlightened and you will have a deep knowing because of the pain in your heart at what you have done.

You will also know this at that moment of enlightenment...You will know how much I love you and in that knowing you will feel pain.


I honor the place in you
In which the entire universe dwells
I honor the place in you
Which is of love, of truth, of light, and peace
When you are in that place in you
And I am in that place in me

We are one.