I haven't cried in 4 days. Count them 1, 2, 3, 4. I really believe all the prayers, happy thoughts and general good feelings people have sent for me are working. I went to the doctor's this morning and I have lost 20 pounds. She gave me my final fill. 100 ccs in each boob. I am now a C+ to a D cup. Then she gave me some freaking great news! She said how soon do you want this to be over with? I said don't I have to wait 3 months. She said no. I thought I did. She said yeah, 3 months after your bilateral mastectomy surgery. She said lets think about the final surgery scheduling it for the last week in May. I said with the biggest shit eating grin you mean my boobs will be done. She said yes. It's a day surgery. I go in, she takes out the expanders and the implants, puts in the silicone implants and she said I will do a little lipo suction here and nip and tuck here and the nipples here and wallah Pam Anderson boobs! Thank you Goddess Dr. Melissa!
I can't wait for Bruce to get home from work. Wait till he see these puppies after today's fill.
Then I am pulling into my driveway feeling pretty damn good and my phone rings. It's my baby Boo. Mom she says I was going to surprise you with this in September for your birthday but I will tell you now...I am moving out there. Me and Jason are moving to Maine. She will be only 3 hours away from me. My baby girl will only be 3 hours away from me. I will finally have family by me. I just can't believe things are looking so good for me right now. I am so happy today that I called Bruce and said it's a guarded happiness, after the last couple of years I've become more pessimistic and I'm waiting for that dooms day cloud to appear and ruin it. But I have to be strong and push those negative thoughts out of my head and just let the goodness come and be so thankful for it. Yeah today is my day to be happy and I just want to enjoy it!
JackieSue, Willie is on his way. He should be there by Wed. I sent you 2 willie paintings. And I found a taste of Texas this weekend...
Bruce and I were riding around yesterday and we found this little hole in the wall eating place. Here are the 2 photo's we took of the place. OMG! The food, I had a Buffalo wrap, it weighed in at 1 and 1/2 pounds. Then I had two fried Oreo cookies with whip cream I tell you it was to die for. The best food I've had in years. Bruce had the fried Twinkie, he took a bite and his eyes rolled back in his head and this sound came out of him and then this smile came over his face like he had died and gone to Hooters heaven.
In closing I want to thank you all once again for the candle lightings and the prayers and happy thoughts, they have reached me and surround me with such peacefulness and joy. Thank you.