The struggle is passing, as you allow it to move. As you release what could have been and what was. When you soften that resistance and pause for a moment. Allowing those tears to fall, allowing that anger to rise. For these moments are intense. They are large waves crashing down. Admit you are struggling. Give up if you have to, wipe your hands of it all. Then something will shift...you hear a sweet call. This call echoes deeply in this heart of yours. Your soul steps forward with its comfort and care. The deepest surrender, of letting go is here. Know you are ready and that you will not feel this way forever. The reason for this feeling is not something you may understand. Find some peace with this, and trust everything is how it needs to be. You cleanse, you purify, you surrender it now. Dropping all baggage, allow it to fall.
You understand that there is purpose to this painful situation. To teach. To teach. To teach.
Now it is up to you. To learn from it, and then release it completely taking the lesson into your now. Or you could change it, make it better with love, understanding, forgiveness and moving on. Letting it go and moving forward better than before.
Rebuilding from the ruins. Wiser and stronger.